My Moving To-Do List

I am a total list-maker.  I make lists for everything.  Moving back to Utah was no exception.  Even before I started thinking about packing, I made myself a to-do list of things I needed to accomplish.  The list went something like this:

1. Find a substitute pianist (because I was leaving a week earlier than previously planned)
2. Say goodbye to my friends
3. Cry
4. Get excited to see Will and Nancy and Eva!
5. Then remember that I first have to say goodbye to my family
6. Cry some more
7. Groan about having to pack
8. Actually pack
9. Say goodbye to my family
10. Cry
11. Drive to Utah
12. See Will, Nancy, and Eva!

So, yeah.  I'm always very sad to leave California.  (Don't judge me just because I am very attached to my family.)  This time I think it was a little harder because I might not move back home next summer.  I have one extra class I need to take and I can't fit it anywhere in my schedule.  I'll probably end up staying in Utah next summer so I can get it done.  :-/  In which case, I'll only be home on breaks.  :-(

So Much is Changing

So much is happening in the next 2 weeks!  And each event has a bittersweet quality to it.

• Thursday--I have my last day at my job, as a nanny to this cute little girl.
• Friday--I turn 20, leave behind my teens, grow up (just a little bit), grow closer to the age I act, enter a new decade.
• Sunday--I speak in church and teach Relief Society
• Wednesday--I say goodbye to all of my friends here in California.
• Thursday--I say goodbye to my family :-( and head for Provo, with my Mom!!!!  I'm so excited she's going with me, excited to see my Brother, Sister-in-law, Niece, and future niece or nephew.  (Mom hasn't been able to drive me out to school before.  I've always gone with Dad, but this time Mom is coming!)
• Saturday--I say goodbye to my Mommy and put her on a plane back to California.  :-(
• Monday--I move into my new apartment.  In Provo.  All by myself.

I'm not excited for all of the changes, but I'm looking forward to all of the amazing experiences, memories, and opportunities that come as life moves forward.  

You can't stand still and expect everything to remain the same.  Life is like walking up the down escalator and you have to keep climbing, otherwise you're moving backwards.  So, I'm excited to keep climbing and experiencing.  :-)

...Hopefully I won't be singing a different tune when life kicks into high gear.  Haha

Pride and Prejudice

So yes, I am now one of those girls that reads Jane Austen.  I recently picked up Pride and Prejudice from the library and it's my first Jane Austen encounter.  So far, it's a pretty good book, though I admit some of the dated language is not my favorite to read.

Anyway, I've been reading Pride and Prejudice and I kind of feel like a Charlotte Lucas.  Plain Jane, nothing fantastic.  I'm praying that I don't end up settling for a Mr. Collins.  Haha.  Sure, he's a good guy, but I don't want to just be content.  I want happily ever after.

I want the love of my life.
My other half.
My best friend.
My partner in crime.
Forever and for always.

And I want to be all that to somebody.

And you know what, I know it will happen.  Someday, somewhere, it will happen.  The only way it won't happen is if I give up.  If I choose to settle.  So, I'm not going to let myself be like Charlotte Lucas, I'm going to hold out.  Stick to my guns.

Be the Elizabeth Bennett I know I am and can be.
Find my Mr. Darcy.

...or perhaps let him find me.  ;-)